Special Awards is just less than 2 weeks away, 13 days more to be exact, but I can see the light now shining brightly towards my goal, our goal, guitar Ensemble's goal and target. Ytd saturdsy normal, had official guitar practice, abit of extra practice, then go watch powerSoccer with shawn, amanda and YP, at stadium for a while, go dinner with amanda and YP, before coming home.

Official guitar practice from 11-12.30pm, was very much a different experience, as we immediately went auditorium practice, tuned guitar. While tuning, witnessed the sparkz group practicing on their part for the upcoming Special Awards, with the song, "I Have A Dream". I listened to them play and then halfway tuned, just sort of piut down guitar, onli staring and watching sparkz sing. I have to say that that team is great, really great.

Then, it was our turn to play liao, to practice on stage, and i got to say that I was shaking at the thought of coming up the ramp linking to the stage, and well, the last time i went up tt ramp was 3 years ago, to coolect my Perserverance award in 2006. Nva gonna imagine I'm going back on stage yet again in 13 days time not to collect award, but to perform guitar. Until now, I still have to take time for reality to sink in...

So yea, went up stage ramp, helped amanda push her up ramp, then do preparations before guitar ensemble started practicing the song. And really, is for real, and yet i cant believe it lor, the reason i not sure why. Played with the tests of microphone and everything, was cool la, to put it simply, its just great to be back to the team where success is flowing, flowing like water....
After official practice, lunch, then Janice treat us to ice cream in Mac, then go void deck play guitar together. All did well i congratulate them for all their efforts, thanks guys...Before sharman had to leave at 4, I gave the team so called a team talk about the prospects of the guitar team who is really going to perform for Special Awards 2009.

"As u all know, we onli have 2 weeks before the actual SA, i hope that all of u can put in much of yr effort to help the team progress as a team. I believe that many of you, except for amanda, will be making yr debut in this event this year. This is a team practice, so cannot rely on invidual talent to see us through it, we must play together as a team to succeed. If we want progress, we have to proogress as a team, not as individuals. All I want from u all is not talent, but consistent effort. I got to say that YP is one of the fastest to improve as well as shawn, but overall the team did well. So let us give our last lap of effort and practice towards that 1 goal that I so dearly crave.."

Then we took bus and train to Choa Chu Kang meet Janice, in the end is we 4 go here ourselves, coz anice will be late. So took bus again to the stadium, got lost there, explored the diffrent ways, then in then end, we went throught the long way, which was a multi-series of slopes to the next level. And, YP and amanda had to manuveur their wheelchairs up the slope, it was quite tiring to go up the slopes. I was also kind of struggling to go up the slope, but i see the 2 of them push their wheelchair up, i suddenly got the feeling of being helpless, as Yuan Ping asked me to let her do it herself which was easier for her, and also i really wanted to help amanda along, but I feared tt she will get say by her, tt she may have wanted to do it herself. As such, I didnt went to tell her abt me helping her. Thus, the feeling of helplessness, but in the end we got up there all right.
Went to the hall there find Janice, met quite of few familiar faces, among them some who are AWWA clients eg. Jiayong, BoonKeng etc. Then watched some matches of the PowerSoccer competition. I thought it was quite interesting to see soccer being played in a different way, the disabled way, using motorised wheelchairs, and I got to say that the skill and control shown by some of the players is just fantastic, really. Seing them play, I thought the modified way of soccer to suit the wheelchair-users was quite fun, and more harder, as the player had to control both their wheelchair and also the ball, yea so it was a eye-opener, showing the disabled people can also have the same interest of playing soccer at a high level of competition, like the way the normal people play their soccer. I am lucky enough to say that I got to witness and play both ways.

Yea after that went dinner with YP and Amanda at Yew tee while shawn had to go home yea. I asked amanda to help me take my handphone after eating, while I helped to push her wheelchair, as she was tired pushing herself liao, so I was quite happy to help her, very happy indeed, yea so psuhed her wheelchair all the wasy to MRT there, then she and Yuan Ping left towatrds Jurong East, while I took the other direction, then we went our different ways liao then realised tt my handphone was with Amanda. Got it back from her yesterday, so ya thanks.

I cannot tell how much I want to win with this team, I still figuring out how to sink in my mind that in another less than 2 weeks, all I have played guitar for over a year will be put to a stern test, I dunno if I can cope with the pressure and the expectation tt comes with it anot, but well, I got to try though. As the leader of the Guitar Ensemble, I promise my team that I will do well, have confidence in me, and also give me confidence.

It may not have sunk in yet, but until I go up on stage and play the guitar like what we all ahve been practicing for so many months, I wont say tt I have completed my dream of a successful debut. I hope I can do it bah...All I know is that the chance of succeeding with this team is put right in front of me now, whether I can successfully play well i dunno liao.. But i will always keep on trying

As what bestie amanda told me once "Dun keep looking down on urself, u sure can do it de. Must believe in urself." I hope I can follow her advice and believe in myself....