I feel that loneliness is the worst emotional feeling one can experience. Whenever I’m alone, maybe traveling to work or school, i maybe thinking about many things. There are also some things which I cannot do much about even if I think about them.

When I try to interact with a person, ask about whether they got include me in the group. Somehow, its hard to tell if im included in the group anot, Sometimes when it is difficult to get really involved in a group interaction. Maybe the topics may be far different, and I won’t really get involved in case I say the wrong information. However, for it may have the feeling of hesitation to be involved even if the topic is of one which I know well.

Take for example, both sides may share the same interests and play a musical instrument, e.g. guitar. Despite this, It seemed a bit hard to interact on the topic of guitars, about each other’s styles of play etc.

Some time recently, Ting Jun asked me a question: If there is one thing I can change, what would it be. However, he also said that on the context of having and making more friends in society, it seems that there is an invisible barrier which holds me back when trying to interact with people socially. However it doesn’t happen when I’m with awwa clique or anyone. Haiz, this socializing problem has indeed set me thinking…